I can’t “Be Still” today. I would like to turn it over to Him and let go of the worry that is consuming me but I find myself wanting too much control. Even as I sit here typing on these keys my gut is a knotted mass of nerves. I think that if I worry I can control the outcome. But I know in my heart that I can’t.
My husband went to work early to talk to his boss about buying the business. There have been phrases thrown around like purchase agreement and confidentiality agreement, enough big words to make my head spin. And I have been having a really hard time trusting God with this. Even though I know that He is the one that brought us here in the first place.
We have found ourselves letting go and giving it up to Him so many times these past two years. We have learned some hard lessons; nothing about this process has been easy. Every time I do give my cares and worries to God I feel a sense of peace inside and everything has worked out.
But today I want control and peace. Is that too much to ask?
My mantra is this verse: Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight. ~Prov. 3:5-6
So today I can’t “Be Still.” Hopefully other people can. I'm going over to One Nutty Girl to find out.
I bet you can now...you know, I usually feel much better after I've written down my feelings. Blogging is therapy sometimes. Did it help you? If not, sometimes you have to live in grace. :)
ReplyDeleteHope your day is sweet.
JoAnn you are right. I do feel better, maybe I just needed to let it all out.
ReplyDeleteGlad you're feeling better. I love that verse and can totally understand still having whispers of worry. I do that too :) Hope it all turns out for the best.
ReplyDeleteJust know you're not alone. We all have days like this.
ReplyDeleteMay the Lord show Himself strong on your behalf.
Blessings!
I'll be praying for you! I'm right there with you. My husband has applied for a job that would require us to move 8 hours from home! The waiting is so hard. the wanting to control, the needing to know, the worry. Each time I turn it over to God I find peace....I just need to somehow stay in that place!
ReplyDeleteThank-you all for your encouraging words and prayers!
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