Thursday, September 23, 2010

Not always easy

Sometimes life is easy. There are smiles and kind words thrown your way. There is such an abundance of good cheer that you feel as if your walking on clouds. It's a lightness of heart, a bubble up of laughter and carefree moments of joy. This...this feeling right here is what I want to bottle up. Save for those dark days when I just need a little bit of light.

The heaviness of heart always sneaks up and makes me remember. Oh no, I know this feeling too. It has been with me for so long that I almost welcome it. An enemy in friends clothing. I have to push it away and push hard so that it know I mean business. Weariness of heart and sadness, they don't live here.

Dry the tears that spill out despite my best intentions. It's time to find that bottled up joy. The joy that is my boys laughter. The joy that is great food and conversation with my husband. The joy that is long distance phone calls and emails from friends scattered far, and hugs and open hearts from the women in my life.

This is the day that the Lord has made. Let us rejoice and be glad in it. Psalms 118: 24

What do you do when you feel sadness creeping in? Or do you ever feel that way?

3 comments:

  1. I do exactly what you mentioned, Amelia. I try to shift my focus to all of my blessings and meditate on the truth of God's Word. And, yes, there are those times when I have to fight extra hard so that, as you said, that sadness "knows I mean business." Hugs to you!

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  2. those feelings are really hard to push away sometimes....sometimes it seems that the world is cruel, friends are mean, family abuse you, and then you remember all your husband, children and grandchildren, and you remember what makes this world a good, and wonderful place to live, and I close my bubble that was so rudely opened up, and I am once again enclosed in my own bubble, and it seems ok again.....

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  3. Thanks for your comments! It's nice to know I'm not alone in this!

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